Author: Shawn Goodman
Publisher- Delacorte Books for Young Readers
Published- December 28th, 2010
Shavonne has never had it easy. Her life has been one problem after the other. Her time at juvenile detention keeps her away from her daughter. Her daughter who she feels is better off without her but it is still her daughter. So she longs to hold her and love her one more time. She was born in the juvenile detention and she could only spend a few moments with her before she was taken away. Although this was sad this wasn't the least unpleasant thing that she had to experience. During her time at the juvenile detention she had moments where she looked back on her life and there were hints that something went wrong with her brother. Something she could never forgive herself for. The thing is when your mother is never there and all you have is your little brother things can happen. She has such a strong attachment to him that if anything were to happen to him she might break. She kind of did. It was like he was her son. You don't find out till close to the end what she did. By then you have been emotionally compromised and you are crying all over the place. When it's revealed I just wanted to hug her. She was a kid. She should have never had that responsibility. It's really sad when your mother doesn't have a good life and you inherit that because once everything hit the fan she had to be put into foster homes. Things happened. Messed up things that make me want fight people. Cringe worthy things. That is my warning to you if you want to read this book. Get ready.
Shavonne has this tough personality because that's how she has to survive. She has to protect herself. You know those people that act tough but really there is so much turmoil in their hearts that they are ready to break? That's Shavonne. I see from her point of view how everything seems so pointless like where do you go from here? I don't know how she doesn't just give up but she does have someone that makes her want to get out of that jail. Her daughter and a guard. The guard is pure evil. I hate her guts. She needs to just stop living... She antagonizes people. There are some crazy people in there and later on someone with a mental disability. And even if it's just the girls that have attitude they have major problems too. There is a reason why they chose to do the things they did. She likes to mess with their heads. Shavonne tries to stay out of her way but she has a soft heart. She has the crazy girl who lived with her and was fascinated by some birds. She was a real sweetheart who wouldn't hurt a fly. You find out her back story in a rather shocking way. It was brilliant but that could have ended badly. Shavonne gets a new roommate with which the guard decides to mess with to get to her. She has a mental disability and... she's pregnant. That's just not right.
Shavonne got angry and did something wrong to someone who was kind to her. She meets the new counselor because of this. He's very sad and has some big problems in his life himself. His approach to her was interesting. I don't know how he could stand to be cursed at. I would cry. I love that the counselor saves the day. This book was pretty intense and had me cringing at moments. It was disgusting to read about what people are capable of. Of course I know it exists but it's just wrong to read about. Shavonne was a strong main character and I have to say yay! Diversity! It's too bad when there is a girl of color in a young adult book that she has to face all these hardships. I was very satisfied with the end although it was bittersweet. I loved how everything came together. It was very hopeful.